In the past several months I heard on several different occasions about Mom's failing, myself included. I know I am not alone when I talk about how hard it is to be a Mom. We constantly doubt ourselves: do I buy organic, braces for a 10 year old, overnight camps, cellphones, or even the new Moms - bottle or breast feed, cloth or pampers, glass or plastic bottles - the list can go on and on depending on what season you are in with Motherhood. However regardless of the season of Motherhood, we are doubting our self and we are saying - I failed...
Me personally I struggle with my time... I work out of town from where we live and where the kids go to school - so Eric (thank God by the way that He gave me him!) does majority of the things with the kids during the week.. He gets them ready, he says goodbye to them each morning, he gets that kiss, hug and wave as they walk into school, he also gets to hear about their day first, he gets to find out if they passed that science test they were dreading. The school even calls him first when the kids are sick or something has happened - talk about a knife in the gut when he calls to tell me "the school called..." my first reaction is but why not me - well I just need to get over myself, it does make more sense for the school to call him - he is only 5 minutes away - but you get my drift! I doubt myself - is this career worth it... am I making the right choice to have a career - am I setting a good example for my kids on what a wife and a mom should be... seeing doubting - this is the season I am in now...
~Side note & off topic...Eric gets those first that I don't get... but I am not upset he does, b/c the twins are seeing what a team is all about - the team of a Mom and Dad and for that I would fail daily if it meant my kids know that it takes all hands on deck to make a family and a marriage work!~
I feel that my time is stretched thin with the kids and I wonder will they look back and know that although my little time that I do have in the evenings with them between being a taxi to and from activities, homework, church, dinner, etc I do cherish those moments. Not once have the kids ever said Mom you failed today at this Mom thing - instead they hug me, ask about my day and don't doubt that I love them! So why do I beat myself up that I can't be at everything and if I slip up and don't get balloons sent to them on their birthday or have 50 cupcakes ready for them to take to school, forget about what color they were suppose to wear that day to school for something God knows what... but I do and I have those little pitty parties for myself when no one is looking - thinking I am failing!
Guess what??!!!!! I failed - I screwed up - I forgot - I was too busy - I was too tired - I was too lazy - I was just being a Mom!
All of this is okay - It's how we react when when we have those little hiccups - I have done better on not beating myself up as much as I use to - I still struggle, but the struggle doesn't last too long! So my advice to young Momma's out there - know it's OKAY - you are going to mess up - but guess what those babies will still love you and hug your neck when you do!!!! So cherish whatever season you are in with your kids and your family and stop saying I am failing at this Mom thing and just say I am Kicking Ass at this Mom thing!!!! BC - you are just ask your Kids - they will tell you that you are the BEST MOM!!!!
As always - keep smiling and keep praying - I know I am!!!!!
