This weekend I went to the Women of Faith Conference in San Antonio. I haven't been in several years and I forgot how much I missed the conference. I also got to spend this time with one of the most amazing women I know - my college roommate Stacey - she and I were thick as thieves back in the day and I cherished our time we got to spend together - she is an amazing woman of Faith and I am so blessed she is in my life!
This year the conference was very centered around young Mom's and finding your way through your crazy days. I prayed during my (4.5 hour road trip) that He touch my heart over the weekend and give me the extra push that I need to work on my relationship with him. I say I am a Christian and I try to be a good one. But, so many times I trip and fall and I wonder - will he really love me if he knows the real me? I know stupid question huh (he made me so yes he knows me!). But, what if I am not all he made me to be, what if I am falling short, what if I can't be that good Christian woman that I think I should be... This weekend one of the speakers (Angie Smith) talked about the what if's and we need to learn to let go of those and concentrate on the What is... so what is my what is? That my friends I don't know - but I do know that I am willing to dive into the scripture and find out. I bought a bible study for me and a girlfriend to start - we have been talking about for a while now - but now we are doing it. It is about Chasing Jesus (Jennie Allen) - well I am ready to chase him that is for sure. I know I will never be perfect and I know at times I will fall down - but the glorious thing is he is ALWAYS right there with open arms to embrace me and love me for who I am with all of my imperfections. I prayed hard on my way home - I turned the radio off and I just prayed - it rained on me the most of the way home - during my prayer I went through a town and it stopped raining for a few miles - there was a rainbow - I think He sent that to me to show me He was listening and riding in the car with me. I haven't seen a rainbow in years - how ironic that I saw one then... We say we need signs - well I am here to say I believe that was my sign. I prayed He would continue to push me to find him and to work on our relationship.
Sunday morning at church I had an amazing thing happen to me. Each Sunday I sit on the pew while Eric and the kids get up and take communion (well Eric does - the kids get blessed for now). I usually take that time to pray alone and it is nice, it's like my own special quiet time with God in his house, however something came over me and I just got up and walked up to the alter and Father Lowery blessed me (I think I shocked him - when he saw me he just smiled so big and I knew it was okay, I had a sense of calmness...) I sat down and was shaking almost, tears in my eyes - I couldn't believe I did it - I walked up there and got blessed. Most of you are thinking so what is the big deal - but mind you it is a very small church and everyone notices... I just always worried what others would think if I got up and just got blessed. I thought it was easier for me to just sit in the pew and pray and hope no one noticed I didn't go up there. Apparently Jesus didn't care and he pushed me to get closer to him. Again - something else I learned I need to stop worrying about what everyone else thinks of me and just concentrate on what He thinks of me. How thankful I am for that push! I guess I experienced one of those moments I always hear about! I have a long way to go, but I am so ready for this journey - I need this void filled and who better to fill it then our God! He defiantly charged my spiritual battery for me and now it is up to me to keep it plugged in!
Until next time keep smiling and keep praying - I know I will be!
Monday, October 15, 2012
Thursday, October 11, 2012
We survived the 1st Six Weeks of 1st Grade!!!!
We have survived the first 6 weeks of 1st grade! I feel like I am back in school. We read, do spelling words, work on sight words, and attempt math (poor things I think I will need a tutor when the math gets more than just adding and subtracting!). But, all in all they are doing great.
I meet with each of their teachers last week to check on their progress and transition from kinder to 1st.
We will start with Trayce man:
He has and I think will always be my perfectionist - he wants everything just in the right order and hates nothing more then to NOT be good at something! Well - school is going to come a little harder for him then most. He is very smart, but he has to work at knowing his sounds, recognizing his sight words etc, BUT I will say in the past 6 weeks, he has came miles from where he was. However, not making all 100's is very hard for him to accept. He threw away a 90 grade on a test in math he got - I found it and asked why - he said it's not a 100! I was like seriously it's an A (wish I would have made A's in math.. another blog ha) - he thought he should have done better. He is going to be his toughest critic, but it also pushes him to do better. It is sad the kids are so worried about making 100's now - spelling test for example, if they make a 100 on their pretest they don't have to take the test on Friday. I like the 2nd try, however it makes them think if they miss one or two they didn't do good... we are struggling with this at home, but he is getting better with accepting he isn't ALWAYS going to make a 100! Overall he is doing great and is making strives each week to be better. He goes with a teacher one on one each day for 30 minutes to have the extra help with the phonics, which he LOVES going, I think he just likes the attention :) but it's working so I am all for it. Our amazing friend Casey is helping a little each day and she is making more strives with him then I think anyone can - he wants to please her so bad! She is definitely a blessing to us! I really don't know what I would do without her!
Little Miss Paige:
She is having a blast being in school. Her teacher told me she is in her top group and would run things if she let her (her Kindergarten teacher said the same thing ha!). I think we have a little leader in the bunch. She loves writing and her teacher told me she is excited to see where her creative writing takes her as her vocabulary and spelling progresses. At home she write songs and books - it is pretty amazing. She is NOT hard on herself - she just goes with the flow. I love her free spirit and stress free attitude. She also takes everyone's feelings in to account. Especially her brothers. At the beginning of school Trayce was not making 100's on his spelling test and she was making them on the pretest (without effort!). Eric and I call her Mini Tiffany! They came home a couple weeks into school and I asked about the spelling - Trayce tells me (sadly) he missed 2, Paige says oh I think I missed one or two. I didn't pay any mind to it - I went about the evening - when they were taking showers I went through their folders - low and behold Paige made a 100. I went and asked her about it - she said "oh okay I guess I forgot" then she went on to tell me - "don't say anything to bubba I don't want him to be upset". My heart melted and I was so proud of her at that moment! Anytime Trayce says he isn't good at something she is the first person to say well I am not as good as you in math :) So many kids would have wanted to rub it in their siblings face - but not mine - they actually care about each others feelings!
In general I am so proud of both of them and the little people they are turning in to. I am so blessed that I get to be a Mom to them - they truly are the light of my life!Not saying they don't have their moments - but all in all they are such good kids!
We went Dove hunting as a family a couple weekends ago - against Paige and I's will - but Eric was persistent that we go as a family. Low and behold we (all of us) had a blast! I didn't kill a bird, but I was going through bullets like crazy! Trayce killed his first Dove and I think Eric was more excited then Trayce - Eric was jumping around like a wild man! Paige had a blast finding all the birds - she didn't mind at all getting in there and picking up dead birds - she even helped her Daddy clean them when we got back to the camp house!
So until next time keep smiling and keep praying.... I know I will be...
I meet with each of their teachers last week to check on their progress and transition from kinder to 1st.
We will start with Trayce man:
He has and I think will always be my perfectionist - he wants everything just in the right order and hates nothing more then to NOT be good at something! Well - school is going to come a little harder for him then most. He is very smart, but he has to work at knowing his sounds, recognizing his sight words etc, BUT I will say in the past 6 weeks, he has came miles from where he was. However, not making all 100's is very hard for him to accept. He threw away a 90 grade on a test in math he got - I found it and asked why - he said it's not a 100! I was like seriously it's an A (wish I would have made A's in math.. another blog ha) - he thought he should have done better. He is going to be his toughest critic, but it also pushes him to do better. It is sad the kids are so worried about making 100's now - spelling test for example, if they make a 100 on their pretest they don't have to take the test on Friday. I like the 2nd try, however it makes them think if they miss one or two they didn't do good... we are struggling with this at home, but he is getting better with accepting he isn't ALWAYS going to make a 100! Overall he is doing great and is making strives each week to be better. He goes with a teacher one on one each day for 30 minutes to have the extra help with the phonics, which he LOVES going, I think he just likes the attention :) but it's working so I am all for it. Our amazing friend Casey is helping a little each day and she is making more strives with him then I think anyone can - he wants to please her so bad! She is definitely a blessing to us! I really don't know what I would do without her!
Little Miss Paige:
She is having a blast being in school. Her teacher told me she is in her top group and would run things if she let her (her Kindergarten teacher said the same thing ha!). I think we have a little leader in the bunch. She loves writing and her teacher told me she is excited to see where her creative writing takes her as her vocabulary and spelling progresses. At home she write songs and books - it is pretty amazing. She is NOT hard on herself - she just goes with the flow. I love her free spirit and stress free attitude. She also takes everyone's feelings in to account. Especially her brothers. At the beginning of school Trayce was not making 100's on his spelling test and she was making them on the pretest (without effort!). Eric and I call her Mini Tiffany! They came home a couple weeks into school and I asked about the spelling - Trayce tells me (sadly) he missed 2, Paige says oh I think I missed one or two. I didn't pay any mind to it - I went about the evening - when they were taking showers I went through their folders - low and behold Paige made a 100. I went and asked her about it - she said "oh okay I guess I forgot" then she went on to tell me - "don't say anything to bubba I don't want him to be upset". My heart melted and I was so proud of her at that moment! Anytime Trayce says he isn't good at something she is the first person to say well I am not as good as you in math :) So many kids would have wanted to rub it in their siblings face - but not mine - they actually care about each others feelings!
In general I am so proud of both of them and the little people they are turning in to. I am so blessed that I get to be a Mom to them - they truly are the light of my life!Not saying they don't have their moments - but all in all they are such good kids!
We went Dove hunting as a family a couple weekends ago - against Paige and I's will - but Eric was persistent that we go as a family. Low and behold we (all of us) had a blast! I didn't kill a bird, but I was going through bullets like crazy! Trayce killed his first Dove and I think Eric was more excited then Trayce - Eric was jumping around like a wild man! Paige had a blast finding all the birds - she didn't mind at all getting in there and picking up dead birds - she even helped her Daddy clean them when we got back to the camp house!
So until next time keep smiling and keep praying.... I know I will be...
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